Every Good Story Needs a Montage

Every story doesn't need a montage, but it seems like something a person with a montage for their story would say.

I have so much footage.

There are many ways I could tell you why my phone and computer are packed to desperate capacity with me singing into cameras, poorly;

My Audience can't only be my forgetul mind and I pretty much live in isolation.

Research.

Writing.

Hope.

Evidence that I'm alive and trying even if nobody sees it.

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.

Autistic Ritual and self soothing methods.

The list goes on..

I should add trauma to the list, just to circle back to my forgetful mind. I'm living in a fugue and performing as well as one can under the global duress that is our collective existence. I made fresh berry crumble during the apocalypse! I also made an album.

I had this idea of compiling the thousands of clips I've collected over the years and not deleted along with every screenshot and blurry photo of my cat and pimples (oh, don't pretend you don't know what I mean) into a montage that would pan out and show more and more videos of me singing into my camera, alone in a room with the same earnest, exasperated expression to convey the magnitude of practice i've dedicated daily over the last years to prepare myself to work even harder than i could imagine.

It's all harder than it looks, is the point of what I'm trying to say. Until you try to do this yourself, please have grace for us little guys out here trying to do scary and uncertain things, like release music during a global meltdown. Just doing it at ALL is a herculean feat and I am the sole Juggernaut at the helm and my helmet is hella itchy, omg why did i wear these socks. You know? Where is my Cowie stuffy I need him with all my heart and soul but also I am a BOSS. Okay.

It will be on vinyl, so if the electricity goes Kaploo-y, one day someone will find my vinyl and my songs will still exist in the grooves and you can crank a hand fast enough to hear it again if you're clever in the future.

Love, Opal

Uptown Alley New Westminster, BC