Grandma was a Clown as well. I'm sure there were some closeted Performers in the family over the centuries but usually my family let's their gift be known.
To hide a Clown is to diminish the world of their gifts. Annoying everyone with their Trauma based humour at the worst possible time to tightly gaurd their true feelings and need to make you feel at ease around me despite the harm on their own souls and hearts.